Tuesday, 27 September 2005

The "Little Mermaid" and the Archetype of the Lost "Bride."

Ariel, the "little mermaid" in the Disney® film, is much more than a fairy tale for little girls. Rather, she is a powerful metaphor for the plight of the "Sacred Feminine" over the last several thousand years of western civilization. Since Mary Magdalene, the "Lost Bride" in the Christian story, is a "carrier" of the Sacred Feminine, (in fact, a composite of Aphrodite, Athene, and Demeter, not to mention similarities with Isis, Inanna and Astarte--and the Holy Sophia!), this discussion is relevant especially to her. She was to have been the Lady of the Age of Pisces as Christ was its Lord, forming together the sacred mandala of "hieros gamos" for the Age of the Fishes.
taken from "The "Little Mermaid" and the Archetype of the Lost "Bride." by Margaret Starbird

I just finished reading Piece by Piece - Tori Amos' recent book with Ann Powers released in tandem with her new album. I'm not nearly as interested in Tori Amos' music as I used to be, but I find her work culturally to be incredibly important. She is out there, re-awakening the goddess, and has no qualms about doing so - in fact I believe she is seeing this as her life's work.

After reading this book, I spent some more time re-evaluating my irritability with christianity, and I'm more or less aware that my problems lie with it's fundamentalist repression, the loss of sophia, the subversion of the magdalene, etc. Basically the same laundry list of complaints of the gnostics.

But the thing that really got me out of my seat while reading Piece By Piece was Tori's reference to the gospel of mary magdalene and the idea that the most beloved disciple might have been mary, thus making her the author of the book of john.

Interesting stuff when you've decided to find the cracks in the dominant paradigm.. If you're into gnosticism (which seems to be experiencing a resurgence) then check out Piece By Piece by T. Amos & Ann Powers. It's a close look at Tori's career on one level, but her mysticism brings this book up to an entirely different level, one where the goddess as co-creator is discussed in depth. & if our society reclaims christianity as a religion involving both Christ and his lover Mary Magdalene.. well church might get a lot more interesting (and a lot less repressed.)

In my mind the real division in this country regarding sexual issues comes not from some morally upright vs. sexually perverse, but rather from those who view sex as for procreation alone (fundamntalist repressed) vs those who see sex as recreation... that may be too simplistic. Actually the dividing lines may be more like this: procreational vs recreational &/or sacred/mystical. While the procreational crowd will never figure out how to allow sacred/mystical sexuality into their life, because they can't see beyond the mechanics of the sexual act - they have some idea of what recreational sex is about, and they're committed to standing against it because
they're afraid of its power.

On the other hand, if it can't be wrapped in plastic & stickered and sold, corporate
america is against it, because it's bad business. That why sacred/mystical sexuality isn't mainstream, but recreational is highly profitable. This in turn exacerbates the division between fundamentalist repressed and corporate entertainment brokers. All the while, stuck in the middle, sacred sexuality becomes more and more isolated and unknown to society at large.

At least, that's the view from where I sit in the wichita vortex.

Saturday, 24 September 2005

Pentagon extends Iraq duty for 9,400 soldiers & other signs we're in deep shit

this is not conspiracy theory. this is applied history.

We've got a civil rights issue looming, anti-war demonstrations, and natural disasters threatening stomping all over the US economy - we have a network of radicals that still can't upset the balance of power, and a culture obsessed with crime and punishment

we have a president who is becoming more and more obviously erratic in behavior, and who's secret society name was "temporary."

so it probably isn't too much of a stretch to compare the events in the world today with the world thirty years ago.. If (and probably when) George W. Bush resigns and heads back to Crawford, we will be living under the KBR fist and cold metal heart of Cheney.

It is necessary to note that KBR recieved major contracts immediately after JFK was assassinated.

Halliburton Deals Recall Vietnam-Era Controversy
Cheney's Ties to Company Reminiscent of LBJ's Relationships

Dec. 24, 2003 -- Current criticism over Halliburton's lucrative Iraq contracts has some historians drawing parallels to a similar controversy involving the company during Lyndon B. Johnson's administration.

Nearly 40 years ago, Halliburton faced almost identical charges over its work for the U.S. government in Vietnam -- allegations of overcharging, sweetheart contracts from the White House and war profiteering. Back then, the company's close ties to President Johnson became a liability. Today -- as NPR's John Burnett reports in the last of a three-part series -- Halliburton seems to be distancing itself from its former chief executive officer, Vice President Dick Cheney.

The story of Halliburton's ties to the White House dates back to the 1940s, when a Texas firm called Brown & Root constructed a massive damn project near Austin. The company's founders, Herman and George Brown, won the contract to build Mansfield Dam thanks to the efforts of Johnson, who was then a Texas congressman.

again, this is not conspiracy theory. this is applied history.

Friday, 23 September 2005

Forecaster leaves job to pursue weather theories

Is this guy on to something? (he's from my hometown - very cool)
POCATELLO - To the rest of the country, Scott Stevens is the Idaho weatherman who blames the Japanese Mafia for Hurricane Katrina. To folks in Pocatello, he's the face of the weather at KPVI News Channel 6...

"I'm going to miss that broadcast, but I'm not going to miss not getting home until 11 p.m.," Stevens said. "I just don't have the hours of the day to take care of my research and getting those (broadcasts) out and devoting the necessary research to the station."

It was Stevens' decision to leave the TV station, said KPVI general manager Bill Fouch.

"When Scott signed his current contract, he told Brenda and me at the time that it would be his last contract," Fouch said Thursday. "We knew, but the timetable moved up because of all the attention (he's been getting.)"

Since Katrina, Stevens has been in newspapers across the country where he was quoted in an Associated Press story as saying the Yakuza Mafia used a Russian-made electromagnetic generator to cause Hurricane Katrina in a bid to avenge the atomic bomb attack on Hiroshima. He was a guest on Coast to Coast, a late night radio show that conducts call-in discussions on everything from bizarre weather patterns to alien abductions. On Wednesday, Stevens was interviewed by Fox News firebrand Bill O'Reilly....

"His theories are his theories," Fouch said. "But, if you think about it - of all the TV weather people, he continues to be the most accurate. It isn't his theories getting involved with his professional job."

his site:
http://www.weatherwars.info/ & the links on his site


And related to all this weather madness is Vargr's rational take on all of this:

I read a quote from an evacuee from New Orleans today in an online newspaper. He currently has to flee Texas due to the approach of hurricane Rita. He said that "God is testing us, that's what it is. At this point, that's all it can be."

I disagree.

Tropical cyclonic storms are the mechanism by which the fluid system of Earth’s atmosphere attempts to remedy the heat imbalance between the equatorial and polar regions. Ocean water evaporates, forming clouds. As the clouds rise they are imparted with a rotational force (the Coriolis force) due to the rotation of the earth. The greater amount of heat available, the more energy these storms will contain....

Those who subscribe to the belief that the god of Abraham created the earth must also believe that he created the laws of physics and thermodynamics. What is happening is a factor of these laws and of human population distribution. This of course does not diminish the effect on the populations who are displaced by these storms, nor of the failure of bureaucracy at various levels to react.

It’s not the wrath of God, it’s not sinners being punished, it’s a function of mechanical processes.

Here's what I think. First, I think Vargr is right: this is a direct effect of global warming. But the right wing has denied that global warming is occuring, and now that we are seeing the direct effects of global warming, the right wing is reaching out for any other explaination no matter how far-fetched or supernatural rather than admit they might have been wrong about global warming. Thus we get these stories about god bringing the stark fist of katrina down on the homosexuals of New Orleans, or about the yakuza bringing the wrath of scalar weaponry down on the fascist US for bombing Hiroshima, and so on...

I know that the United States wants to control the weather, and is ready to pony up $10,000,000 for each of fiscal years 2005 through 2014 in order to figure out how to do so and it is no small step to assume that other countries are also trying to figure out how to go about this. But to immediately assume that this weather is coming from intelligently designed devices or via some angry sky-father, rather than as a direct result of an issue that scientists have been warning us about for forty years strikes me as a case of wilfull blindness.

oh, & fwiw:
My dad has told me global warming is absurd, that there is more methane gas produced by cattle than by cars. My counter to this is that vast chunks of rainforest have been cut down to provide grazing land for cattle, and that right now cattle are a big problem in global warming because beef is such a huge industry. We don't just need to get off fossil fuels, we need to cut down on cutting down rainforest and severely curtail the amount of free range cattle on the planet.

So I'm not going to discount all the conspiracy theories immediately, but I do think these theorists are overlooking the most obvious issue, mainly because they've been wilfully ignoring it for years.

Thursday, 22 September 2005

National Archives Indian Records Discarded

WASHINGTON (AP) - Federal officials are investigating how National Archives documents of interest to Indians suing the Interior Department were found discarded in a trash bin and a wastebasket.

The discovery came to light on Sept. 1, when Archives staff noticed federal records in one of the trash bins behind the National Archives Building near the Capitol. They notified the Archives' inspector general, Paul Brachfeld, whose staff recovered the documents.

They found at least a portion of the documents were Bureau of Indian Affairs records dating to the 1950s, according to Jason Baron of the Archives' Office of General Counsel, in a letter last week to an Interior Department official.

Brachfeld's office began investigating, and ``what appear to be Indian records were discovered in a waste basket in the stack areas at Main Archives,'' Baron wrote. Taken together, the two dumping incidents ``may be intentional acts aimed at unlawfully removing or disposing of permanent records from the Interior Department,'' he wrote.

make of that what you will

Tuesday, 20 September 2005

Bengsmack: Amazon censored my Vonnegut review--erased it--GONE

Ben Mack's censored review of Man Without A Country by Kurt Vonnegut

Thank you Kurt.

If you are a humanist, you will probably dig Man Without A Country. I’ve read the Amazon
reviews and on other sites that take book reviews. I’m astounded by people who take offense to Vonnegut’s humanistic perspective. One reviewer below suggests that Man Without A Country contains talking points straight from the Democratic National Committee. I checked the DNC website and couldn’t identify any lines from Vonnegut’s book. So it goes.

Yes, Vonnegut draws connections between Bush and Hitler—they both called themselves Christians despite what many liberal documentaries suggest about Hitler being a pagan. But being opposed to Bush doesn’t make Kurt a Democrat. Read Kurt’s words, HE’S A HUMANIST. For those of you that are anti-humanists, there are plenty of sentences to be taken out of context to exploit towards your own divisive agendas. Vonnegut reminds us of a line by Shakespeare: “The Devil will quote scripture for his purpose.”

When did respecting each other become politically divisive? I’ve often wondered why respecting science is politically divisive. Kurt sheds some light on these topics among others.

Look, if you think the world is all hunky-dory, this won’t be your cup of tea. Or, if you dug Vonnegut’s earlier work solely for his humor, you may be disappointed with this read. Vonnegut grapples with his grasp on turning out humor, about how other humorists loose their humor as they age. Vonnegut still has his humor, but he is pissed off—many readers haven’t known when he has been joking and when he has been serious. For the remedial readers he annotates his jokes by saying, “I’m kidding.”

Just because Kurt loves humans, he isn’t beyond shaking his finger at those who preach love as they drop bombs and enslave little brown folks. If you object to this assessment of our current world order, and you have read the books Vonnegut suggests every non-twerp has read, then, I’m open to reading your objections to the content of Kurt’s assertions. Seriously, do you consume much non-American media?

Fellow humanists,
it’s time to take these ideas seriously. Enough of the politicians spewing their intellishit. Kurt begins his penultimate book: “There is no reason good can’t triumph over evil, if only angels will get organized along the lines of the mafia.”

Here’s to Bokonon. * Kurt, I look forward to reading your next novel. I hope you do find a way to write it’s ending.

much more here

Monday, 19 September 2005

Nine Inch Nails (NIИ) etymology

is there something deeper in the symbol for nine inch nails?

I've spent a long time pondering why NIИ is such an effective logo, and I think the answer may lie in the ziegarnick effect.

Nine inch nails initials are NIИ, which are also the first three letters of nine inch nails. So the missing letter is summoned spontaneously to the conscious mind - the initials, the logos, are actually an incomplete fragment of the first word. Even more important, the logo itself is designed to pull in the eye (or the I) and hold it

I have a theory that this logo may be part of the reason why nine inch nails has had such commercial success - there are musicians out there who should have become famous - who have had better sound, or were better vocalists, and admittedly a certain percentage of NIИ audio is remixed by heavy-hitters in the music world, but is released under the NIИ brand, and that could be done by any musical group - it just grows the brand. the real reason NIИ seems so powerful as a group then is because of the logo and it's effect on consciousness

so in other words, trent reznor got where he is by being a composer, not only of music, but of neurolinguistic triggers.

or so I'm going to assume at the moment.


Also, in this new album there's another clue.

Above the head of the hierophant there are nine nails.

Also look at the finger positions in both pictures, and check out the comments on this entry

(NSFW) Suicide Girls is owned by a right winger who treats women like shit. Or: why I don’t link to them

technorgasmic porn news:if you're at work don't go clicking around randomly on the links in this post
It seems that not enough people know the truth about the Suicide Girls and still think it’s some sort of hip, progressive, women owned and operated porn company....

The first place I came across him being described as a neoconservative was this Willamette Weekly story quite a while back. I can’t find any specific examples of him calling
himself neoconservative, but various blog and forum posters indicate that he has described himself as such.
And most importantly: the models get treated badly. Here’s a Live Journal community dedicated to SG discussions and here’s a thread there about alternatives. I’m happy to see that the Blue Blood family of sites got pretty good comments from models.

Many of the above links are from the comments on this blog. And here’s a good rant about them on Slashdot.

I had no clue. a friend of mine recently got added to suicide girls, or so I believe - If she'd known this, I know for a fact she wouldn't even have considered it.. strange. You'd think the right-wingers would stay out of porn & if I could remember her aol screenname I'd send her this article. bloody hell.

Key23 | metachor - Emerging from Fear

I felt trapped in my own situation, as if I lacked the power to determine my own possibilities and coincidences. I had not made my own space in which to grow and shed the skin of old self-limiting habits. I had not stepped out to my own reality, but passively let an illusory fate wash over me. I did not take actions to actualize my own desires, or actions to appease the suffering I see all around me. “What the thinker thinks, the prover proves” — and in seeing helplessness and suffering to all quarters, my own life reflected a feeling of helplessness and suffering.

But I take responsibility for seeing those dire conditions, for accentuating and bringing them to the fore in my own life. Communities of proactive and hopeful individuals exist and fight for the dreams everywhere. The community around this site acts in such a manner, and the ultracultural community at large. As a unique individual I can determine my own point of view and actions toward creating change in myself and the world.

this whole article vibrates - I really needed to hear this and think it through after all the emotional turmoil I've isolated myself away to experience. Charting one's personal demons is by no means a simple procedure.

Saturday, 17 September 2005

Now For Sale: You've A Nail

Printed: $9.50
Download: $3.75

This is the first full chapbook of poetry of mine for sale

It is also available for free here, but if you buy it I'll get a whole three bucks, and quite honestly I could use three bucks. That's a bag of catfood for Gargy - which keeps her from eating my eyeballs while I'm sleeping.

a tribute to the toxick - starts 9/17

this is the lineup:

1 eLeSDe - Kalte Farben
2 Roots, Bloody Roots - Sepultura with L. Pavarotti
3 Need Another One - Misery Loves Co.
4 A Report Upon the Consumption of Myself - Charles Bukowski
5 Twist - Nine Inch Nails
6 88 Lines about 44 Women - The Nails
7 Baby, I'm an Anarchist - Against Me
8 Beauty Is The Enemy - Cevin Key
9 would the last person to leave please turn out the enlightenment? - t.i.s.m.

here's the link to the program

Thursday, 15 September 2005


so taking a look at how I rated in an online chakra test and psych test, it's obvious I need to do less mentally and get in touch with grounding elements - i'm the worst kind of air-head, an elitist one.. granted a lot of this is emotional armoring as self-defense for the environment I percieve myself existing in - I feel like I'm stranded behind enemy lines in the culture war - but that doesn't change the fact that living like this is self-defeating

so I'm going to try to confront all the things I've been using the net as a distraction to avoid

a friend of mine is running his life like a scavenger hunt. I set up a blog for him because to him the internet is a place to get stuff.

his lists are interesting - lots of obscure horror films and strange artists

I on the other hand have been trying to simplify and streamline the objects in my posession - I don't need any more shit until I get my shit together, and even then it's just more shit...

Tuesday, 13 September 2005

Scientists find growing land bulge in Oregon

PORTLAND, Oregon (Reuters) - A large, slow-growing volcanic bulge in Western Oregon is attracting the attention of seismologists who say that the rising ground could be the beginnings of a volcano or simply magma shifting underground.

Scientists said that the 100 square-mile (260 sq-km) bulge, first discovered by satellite, poses no immediate threat to nearby residents.

"It is perfectly safe for anyone over there," said Michael Lisowski, geophysicist at the United States Geological Survey's Cascades Volcano Observatory in Vancouver, Washington....

Lisowski said the unnamed bulge was created because of a big cavity, estimated to be about 4.5 miles below the surface, that is filling with fluid.

The fluid is likely magma, but could also be water. It was described in the report as a lake 1 mile across and 65 feet deep.

okay apparently I should seek a career as a psychic

Monday, 12 September 2005

LA: dude where's my grid?

I phoned a pal in the 'hood on my mobile to ask if she knew anything. She didn't, and said "I guess this means I'm paranoid, but the first thing I did when the lights went out was change from heels to sneakers and get ready to run."

People were trapped in elevators, cars bumping into each other, streets are chaotic. When the power goes out, all stoplights are supposed to convert to four-way stop signs -- but in Hollywood, nobody can count that high. Ohwaityestheycan, you just have to stick a little dollar sign in front of each number... or precede them with the words "Star Wars Episode."

UPDATE: Whups -- LA Times reports that the blackout was "caused by an employee who inadvertently cut a power cable." Link

unreal. I made an off-hand comment " I can't help but think that we're getting damn close to some end-point

next it's going to be L.A. or melbourne - maybe even a volcano in oregon.

The sky is falling! "

and within what, two hours there's a power outage in L.A. Honestly, it wasn't me

Six Ways to Increase Intelligence

six ways to increase intelligence

Increase the diversity of input (varieties of sensory perceptions)
Increase the diversity of transformations (multiple meanings / interpreations / metaphors)
Increase the diversity of output (expression / application)
Improve the conditions of the physical support systems (body, environment)
Remove or reduce the environmental factors which inhibit intelligence (labels, bureaucracies, etc.)
Increase the environmental factors which support intelligence (trust, communities, unpredictability, communication technologies, etc.)

lots more at the link

Time/Space Avatars And You


samuel23 just posted an essay a freaking tome on avatar intereaction - I'm going to have to take some.. ah. time to sit down and fully understand this post. here's a start:
For those interested in working with this concept an excellent starting point is KAirOS, the avatar I created/contacted to help me explore and codify the experiences with time magic I had into what has come to be known as current 144. KAirOS is note only useful for developing the sort of reconditioning mentioned earlier, but has also proven to be enormously useful in actually working time magick.Before we get ahead of ourselves though, let’s get a better feel for KAirOS by looking at his evolution.

Kairos is a word I first came across many years ago in the works of Madeline L’Engle, where it was used to describe time both as a dimension, and as God’s time, which is regardless of your religious inclinations or lack there of a very appropriate way to describe that eternal moment so critical to the working of time magic.

(in waking life it's called 'the holy moment')

this is good stuff.

join space

go on, join space.

Please do not enter invalid or incorrect information in this form or you will most likely not be granted access to the site.

you want to join space.

Please do not enter invalid or incorrect information in this form or you will most likely not be granted access to the site.

it is your true will to join space

Please do not enter invalid or incorrect information in this form or you will most likely not be granted access to the site.

they don't want you to join space because you will be free.

ternary computers

wikipedia: Setun was a ternary computer developed in 1958 in Russia. It was one of the first practical ternary computers, using three-valued ternary logic instead of two-valued binary logic prevalent in computers before and after Setun's conception.

you are a ternary computer deciding which reality to exist in

me too

lsd shows you both sides/lsd is the blood of satan on paper/lsd is hyperspace exposed

this guy is on to something (notice I did not say on something)

NSFW link... who's the most famous porn star in the world right now? (google says briana banks)

OS 0 1 2:
KEY: To understand the nature of ideas themselves we only have to understand three very simple things.

We have to know the difference between what we say is a [true] idea, a [false] idea, and an idea that is [both] true & false. [True/False] = Mystery
(philosophical product of highintelligence.info)

HEAR? (doomsday vs bloomsday)

there's more connections there..here think: not the brain, but the liver

did russia stop making trinary computers or did they make them secret? puzzling evidence

Christopher Walken for President


Christopher Walken is running for president in 2008


okay, no he isn't.

slow motion posting (thanks leo)

amazing how much comment spam this post picked up in all of an hour and a half

Sunday, 11 September 2005


I can't even tell what's true or not any more
Ruptured New Orleans Levee had help failing By: Hal Turner September 9, 2005 3:36 PM EDT

New Orleans, LA -- Divers inspecting the ruptured levee walls surrounding New Orleans found something that piqued their interest: Burn marks on underwater debris chunks from the broken levee wall!

One diver, a member of the U.S. Army Corps of Engineers, saw the burn marks and knew immediately what caused them. He secreted a small chunk of the cement inside his diving suit and later arranged for it to be sent to trusted military friends at a The U.S. Army Forensic Laboratory at Fort Gillem, Georgia for testing.

According to well placed sources, a military forensic specialist determined the burn marks on the cement chunks did, in fact, come from high explosives. The source, speaking on condition of anonymity said "We found traces of boron-enhanced fluoronitramino explosives as well as PBXN-111. This would indicate at least two separate types of explosive devices."

The levee ruptures in New Orleans did not take place during Hurricane Katrina, but rather a day after the hurricane struck. Several residents of New Orleans and many Emergency Workers reported hearing what sounded like large, muffled explosions from the area of the levee, but those were initially discounted as gas explosions from homes with leaking gas lines.

If these allegations prove true, the ruptured levee which flooded New Orleans was a deliberate act of mass destruction perpetrated by someone with access to military-grade UNDERWATER high explosives.

Learning to be Stupid

(remember, I'm in kansas where evolution is illegal - this stuff cuts close to home)
from Learning to be Stupid in the Culture of Cash:

The poet Percy Bysshe Shelley wrote that, in the rapacity that the industrial revolution created, people first surrendered their minds or the capacity to reason, then their hearts or the capacity to empathize, until all that was left of the original human equipment was the senses or their selfish demands for gratification. At that point, humans entered the stage of market commodities and market consumers -- one more thing in the commercial landscape. Without minds or hearts, they are instrumentalized to buy whatever deadens their clamoring and frightened senses -- official lies, immoral wars, Barbies, and bankrupt educations.

contrast that with this: Human Brains Are Getting Larger, More Complex, Scientists Say

Scientists studying two genes that regulate brain size, Microcephalin and ASPM, found groups of variants, known as haplogroups, that emerged about 37,000 years ago and 5,800 years ago, according to the papers published yesterday in Science. Anatomically modern humans evolved about 200,000 years ago.

``Our studies indicate that the trend that is the defining characteristic of human evolution -- the growth of brain size and complexity -- is likely still going on,'' Bruce Lahn, lead researcher for both papers, said in an accompanying statement. ``If our species survives for another million years or so, I would imagine that the brain by then would show significant structural differences from the human brain of today.''

blend this with The Joy of Micropamphleting, serve chilled

currently experiencing information burnout

currently experiencing information burnout

will return conscious and coherent once system is purged

please devote all attention to ABCWarrior and Friends while I detoxify

Friday, 9 September 2005

visualize various concepts in math, physics, and engineering

I'll check these out when I have time - they look interesting.. I found this link on metafilter:

These are some applets I wrote to help visualize various concepts in math, physics, and engineering. You should be able to view them with any Java-capable browser.

Weatherman Claims Japanese Mafia Behind Hurricane Katrina

Scott Stevens says after looking at NASA satellite photos of the hurricane, he’s is convinced it was caused by electromagnetic generators from ground-based microwave transmitters.

The generators emit a soundwave between three and 30 megahertz and Stevens claims the Russians invented the storm-creating technology back in 1976 and sold it to others in the late 1980s....

At least ten nations and organizations possess the technology but Stevens suspects the Japanese Yakuza created Katrina in order to make a fortune in the futures market and to get even with the U.S. for the 1945 bombing of Hiroshima.

Write Fuck on the Wall - Robin Banks & Pablo Goldstien (now more than ever)

sing along lyrics:

It's all screwed up out there man but you don't need me to tell you that
you already know
you can see it for yourself
even the weather's gone crazy
an ill wind blows
the policeman's got a license now buddy he can shoot you on sight
some sniv'lin politician playin' savior to the christians
got us so wound up we can't sleep at night

rich kids they drive around drunk in their daddy's mercedes benz
then they try to tell me that the means
somehow justify the ends
and that's bullshit
god damn it man
aw to hell with it all
I just want to get stoned
write fuck on the wall

you can spend four years and a fortune even get a degree and so what?
ain't gonna be no jobs
my best friends girlfriend went to mexico to keep working
and dig this man, she builds Fords
well she's gone now and you know what that means
I'll have to do myself tonight
wash my own dirties even roll my own doobies
it's all good
it just don't feel right

and I got voices in my head
won't let me think and the bitch
ate me out of house and home, drank every drop there was left
in the house to drink and I just hate that shit
god damn it man
aw to hell with it all
I just want to get stoned
write fuck on the wall

whenever my old man would work he'd head straight for the bar
come home and beat the crap out of me
he told me
you ungrateful little punk
i'm trying to toughen you up
for the chinese and armeggedon and World War 3
and I said yeah man but even the king
can be brought down by a girl
and then the pretender can step in and steal the crown
try to take over the world
and bomb third world countries back into the stone age
we got mass murder in our schools
you think we're so evolved man
check out the front page
we barely crawled out of the primordial ooze
the whole goddamned world's gone crazy
lost our collective minds one and all
since we're already screwed man
let's get stoned
write fuck on the wall

right fuck on the wall man!

me & my tarot layout

two video clips:Hello and
my modified tarot layout

If you use tarot, and are familiar with the celtic cross layout, then this should make sense to you - it's a modified version, with 3 added cards at the end, and it helps provide a structure - the principle behind it is that not only are you influenced by outside events, but that those influences are tied to others in their path - you are other people's outside events, just like they are your outside events.

Thursday, 8 September 2005

who the fuck is glukoza?

Glukoza, translated "sugar”. Glukoza is Natasha Ionova, a 19 year old Russian girl. She is blonde, she is sexy and she´s got an amazing voice.
In short: She is a damn hot popstar. All the Russians (and the Ukrainians too) love her, she sells millions of records there and won the 2003 MTV Music Award for Best Russian Act. Her Label is a part of a company that also produces 3D animated films. The animation team created all the videoclips for Glukoza and as you can see – they´re really good. She currently presents her new album “Moscow”, which features the track “Shvayne” which is a German word (Schweine) and means “pigs”. See the "Shvayne"-videoclip on this page
i'm digging the video.. but it's odd to see some one marketed as "she sells records" - that's not marketing, that's the point of marketing

(found on mefi) lyrics in english

Redemption from Wilderness: The end of the Beat Generation

it is good to see lefty writing online - this is her first entry in what I hope to be a long line of blog entries - that she is in this world and able to comment on it is a blessing
As a child I lived in the birthplace of Jack Kerouac, Lowell, Massachusettes. Twenty years later I lived in the death place of William S. Burroughs, Lawrence, Kansas. And it was there I lived the day I heard that Hunter S. Thompson had killed himself.... Now I live next to CBGB and its a landmark that's going to dissapear, too. I keep hoping to see protestors, but there is only a window scene in the bar with a protest sign and there are patrons wearing "Save CBGB," shirts.

One night I heard a man over a microphone and excitedly rushed to the window hoping to see protest. Instead it was an NYC tour bus and the guide was speaking to his captive audience on wheels and holding a "Save CBGB," T-shirt and they drove away.
read the rest of the article here

(a bit of trivia: there's a picture of lefty holding my cat gargy in Tarot:Witch of the Black Rose #7)

91x Trent Reznor interview

I caught the interview with Trent Reznor on 91x - He speaks candidly about new orleans, sobriety, and the upcoming tour

nine inch nails fans should look here

Taylor Ellwood - Author

Fellow Key23 contributor Taylor Ellwood has a number of interesting looking books out now & you can order them from amazon.

Pop Culture Magick: " How to create pop culture god forms and entities " How to invoke yourself into a godform " How to create practical techniques based off of TV shows, comics, and other forms of pop culture media " How to charge your sigils by playing video games " How to create your own system of magick based off of fantasy books, TV shows, or any other form of pop culture media.

(reviewed by madghoul.com)

Creating Magickal Entities : A Complete Guide to Entity Creation (Paperback)
by David Michael Cunningham, Taylor Ellwood, T. Amanda R. Wagener Creating Magickal Entities is a comprehensive reference manual that presents step-by-step instructions for creating entities through astral manipulation that will change your life. This manual, written by three practicing occultists, reveals magickal and alchemical methods, many which have been lost and suppressed through the ages, in a refreshingly modern way that magickal practitioners of any tradition can understand.

(reviewed by spiralnature)

and most recently:
Space/Time Magic: When we use terms such as past and future we are already trying to organize a frame of reference that prioritizes when certain events occur, and as such we limit our frame of reference to a single moment. My argument is that the present exists in every moment of time and consequently you or I, or anyone else exists in the present, in every moment of time that we've existed in. In other words, the you of two years ago is still you that is in the present and that version of you can be accessed and experienced in its own present, by yourself. I often think that deja vu is a manifestation of this principle in that one version of yourself sends information to another version at another point in the present, where it can be used to deal with that particular present and enable a desired manifestation. Another approach I use, which is also favored by Brain Shaughnessy, is memory modification. The memories that we have our suspect, and as such, can easily be modified. I use my memories as a gateway to an earlier version of myself and then work through those memories to change my "past."

(from madghoul.com interview)

(& while I'm at it - Generation Hex)

the German Anarchist Pogo Party's political broadcast

German anarchist party's TV advert offends viewers

Rather than offer any presentation of policies, the party's campaign spot spliced together scenes of debauched revellers smashing furniture, pouring beer down each other's throats and groups of couples kissing and groping each other, all set to a frantic heavy metal soundtrack.

As an officially registered political party, the Hamburg-based APPD, which sells t-shirts on its Web site that proclaim "Arbeit ist Scheisse" ("work is shit"), is entitled to free television air time for its advertisements.

alternate servers for advert

San Diego Radio Station to Interview Trent Reznor

The San Diego radio station 91X will reportedly be interviewing Trent Reznor tomorrow morning at 7 a.m. It looks like you can also listen online if you sign up as a registered user

when you are listening to the 91X stream on-line, it will be delayed 5-10 minutes from what is heard over the airwaves. This is due to technical and legal issues in which the advertising spots played on 91X can not be duplicated on the 91X stream

that'd be about 9:00 am my time, give or take five minutes

Wednesday, 7 September 2005

Kol Belov - Kollaps

this looks excellent.

here's the article this & the previous links came from

Salad Fingers

Some are dark, some are silly, most are wierd. Just let them soak in to your insides and give you a warm feeling. The warning has now been upgraded to BOLD, so you really have your self to blame if you are the complaining type.

They're all pretty small in size, so even people connected to the internet through their Sega Master Systems will be able to watch them. I've also provided the links to them on NEWGROUNDS, so you must go there and give me 5/5!

WARNING! These will upset children and the elderly, and please watch these at your own risk if you are doing acid or mushrooms. No complaints, I've warned you.

Broken Saints dvd


Cannibalism and Your Teen

After hearing about two teenagers "eating each other," Barry Becker warns his son about the dangers of cannibalism.

sick but fun!

(found in the testing ground)

Tuesday, 6 September 2005

Invisible Monster Live In Sky, He Angry

Send Big Storm! Must Pray to Invisible Monster Live in Sky!

(amsam roundup of apocalyptic finger pointing)

[Reason and scorn are the best ways to deal with morons and bullies such as this. What a shame that a penny of public funds goes to their support when real public good could occur if that penny went to secular causes such as medicine and education.]

yesterday's post/when the levee breaks lyrics

I posted pretty late at night - mainly what I meant by all the "is this true" links was that the apocalyptic finger pointing is reaching a crescendo. the real issue is the looming ecological disaster, but since no one can really do anything about that except watch, we're going to do what we can do, which is place blame.

and those with the least idea of what transpired will be the most vocal, because those who experienced this first hand are traumatized beyond cognition

this is a class and race issue, and that will become more evident as time passes and the masks slip to reveal the true faces... here's a glimpse:

Barbara Bush said: "Almost
everyone I’ve talked to says we're going to move to

Then she added: "What I’m hearing which is sort of
scary is they all want to stay in Texas. Everyone is
so overwhelmed by the hospitality.

"And so many of the people in the arena here, you
know, were underprivileged anyway, so this--this (she
chuckles slightly) is working very well for them."

screw texas. take led zepplin's advice & go to chicago:
You don't know which way to go?
If you're goin' down South,
There ain't no work to do;
If you're goin' North,
There's Chicago.

Jakalope - It Dreams

it does dream - treads on garbage territory

The band was formed in 2003 by noted Canadian industrial musician Dave Ogilvie. The core members of the band include Anthony Valcic, Katie B, Don Harrison, Don Binns and Don Short. (Harrison, Binns and Short, nicknamed "The Three Dons", are all former members of the bands Sons of Freedom and 2preciious.)

The band also collaborated with a number of guest musicians, including Trent Reznor, Kat Bjelland and members of Sloan, Monster Magnet and Malhavoc.

This album is currently only available as an import from Canada.
Producer: Dave Ogilvie, Anthony Valcic, (Trent Reznor, Jamey Koch)

here's the band site: jakalope.net

(wow. so that's why dave ogilvie didn't produce tGWotR)

I'm checking out the site now

ain't bad - not my scene - but it's clever and mean

Monday, 5 September 2005

’US Troops mutiny in Iraq’

is this true? (from mefi)

US Embassy in Baghdad inquires into reports that American troops in Iraq have mutinied against their officers. WMR has learned that the US embassy in Baghdad is checking into reports that U.S. troops in Iraq, including National Guardsmen, Army and Marine Corps Reserves, and regular military troops from Louisiana and Mississippi, have mutinied against their officers and are demanding to be immediately sent back home to help their families. It is not known whether the reported mutinies involve physical violence. The reports of rebellions among U.S. troops are filtering out of the Green Zone and at Baghdad International Airport from Iraqis who are working alongside their American counterparts at both locations.

how about this... is this true? (from mefi)

"It's as if the entire Gulf Coast were obliterated by a -- the worst kind of weapon you can imagine"
~ George W. Bush September 2, 2005

Another Presidential slip of tongue? Is this evidence that Katrina was steered toward New Orleans using scalar technology? This is not too far-fetched considering the U.S. Air Force's own doctrine of Weather as a Force Multiplier: Owning the Weather in 2025 (.pdf). Senator Kay Hutchison seems convinced enough to have proposed S. 517: A bill to establish a Weather Modification Operations and Research Board, and for other purposes. Considering the U.S. government's history of secret human experimentation, I wonder just what other "purposes" this bill would have in store for us considering the vast uses of EM/scalar technology? Check out this video of Soviet Weather Engineering over North America

sure, maybe blog readers here know how to identify misinformation but that doesn't mean the rest of the world has that toolkit. the problem isn't going to slow down - this is the second hurricane, the memetic one.. in the words of a rockstar:

"disbelief and sadness are evolving into outrage" - t. reznor

goddamn right they are...

Sunday, 4 September 2005

Got Fleas? - Unquiet Mind

the strange journey of unquiet mind is an intensely personal one. It started as an anti-comic strip - a tragic strip - in an attempt to document the emotional and psychological turmoil I was feeling as I dug around in my psyche and through the internet.

when I met kitty meow, I had just started re-evaluating the solo material I'd been working on (now released under the name "Philip K Nixon") and had decided to try putting together a more industrial-focused project - music that couldn't be played on the radio because it was too unfriendly. that was my stated goal, and when I explained it to kitty, she got it, saw how we could construct it, and gave me the idea of sampling our friends. immediately we started working on it, and within a few weeks had our first ep constructed.

Over the next few months, we created an album with the idea that it was a hex on all institutional systems - released it online on election day as a massive fuck you to both political parties. Unquiet Mind is about the rage an idividual feels when emeshed within a community that violates the individual's need to be an individual - we're ontological werewolves behind occupied lines - and our only weapon is rage

taking this to the next step, now that kitty and I have split, I am the sole creative force behind this project, and the material kitty and I generated with the intention of creating a remix album of teotwawki (um..yeah) as well as the material intended for the next album (to be called TRUTHSEEKERS/LOVERS/WARRIORS) is now entirely in my hands. I miss very much the creative interplay of ideas that existed when this project first began, but I also have discovered that I need this outlet - that mixing this... working on this project, is a psychological necessity now.

This is my deposit of hatred: it is destructive, it is painful, and it is noise. Unquiet Mind is the voice of my personal abyss and my hatred and my own personal decay. I do not do this for you, and I wonder very much if I'm doing it for myself. Sometimes I feel like a ouija board, that I am echoing the pain of the dead in these tracks, that they are using me to communicate through to the living. Consider this a warning.

That said, check out the latest track.

Do You Know What It Means to Lose New Orleans? By ANNE RICE

I know that New Orleans will win its fight in the end. I was born in the city and lived there for many years. It shaped who and what I am. Never have I experienced a place where people knew more about love, about family, about loyalty and about getting along than the people of New Orleans. It is perhaps their very gentleness that gives them their endurance.

They will rebuild as they have after storms of the past; and they will stay in New Orleans because it is where they have always lived, where their mothers and their fathers lived, where their churches were built by their ancestors, where their family graves carry names that go back 200 years. They will stay in New Orleans where they can enjoy a sweetness of family life that other communities lost long ago.

But to my country I want to say this: During this crisis you failed us. You looked down on us; you dismissed our victims; you dismissed us. You want our Jazz Fest, you want our Mardi Gras, you want our cooking and our music. Then when you saw us in real trouble, when you saw a tiny minority preying on the weak among us, you called us "Sin City," and turned your backs.

Philosophy of the Human Union

I hold the following to be true:
Human Beings belong to a global system of life.

Each organism reaches an equillibrium with the system. This equillibrium creates a niche.

Human Beings have shown that our enviornmental niche, our place in the Universe, is as kings of the Earth.

To sustain our niche is to sustain ourselves and our children. We must sustain together, or we will perish.

Sometimes the most obvious is the least recognized.

At first my attempt was to flush out the meaning of the Human Union from individuals and groups by leading them on a Socratic easter egg hunt through the path of most resitence until they realized the Truth (capital T, of course). However it Dawned on me that the Human Union is entirely self explanatory
We are complicating beings - when something makes too much sense, we usually look for the hidden layers, and when there is no result, we move on, ignoring the initial observations. We're all human. we should all recognize we're all human, and act accordingly

this is why conspiracy theories are so dangerous - because they are fundamentally devisive. especially when you add to it the elitist ideologies of messianic bloodlines (or reptillian or nephilim bloodlines)

Friday, 2 September 2005

moment of moralizing re katrina

the issue isn't the gasoline jump right now, it's not the inability of the masses to understand power politics, it's the fact that thousands if not tens of thousands of poor and middle class children don't have houses or food in louisiana

this isn't an act of god, unless god's 'a kid with an ant farm' this is an entirely predictable result of ignoring globabl warming - but that's also not the most immediate issue. the most immediate issue is that people need places to stay and potable water

sure, we can all point apocalyptic fingers at each other's beliefs (it's cause of gaza, or it's good this happened because it illustrates the oil dependency, or it's all because katrina was named after a fetus) but these are all window dressings on the real issue, which is that people need places to stay and edible food

turning this into a political debate is the easiest way to avoid reality - the problem isn't the masses, it's the illusions that've dazzled thier eyeballs... we don't need to reduce the earth's population to 500,000,000 million people and should not applaud mass death - there's only now, only this moment - those who're using this devestation as an object lesson in thier cosmography are trapped in a timeless place that isn't now.
(from wikipedia | political effects of Katrina) Questions have been raised about the funding cuts to upgrade the levees during the President Bush's first term in office even though the Army Corps of Engineers claim that where the breeches are were not slated for repair. Much of these cuts are directly related to the tax cuts and the War in Iraq, which were the central policy initiatives of the administration. Calls for President Bush's Impeachment began almost immediately as he appeared to stumble in the early days of the crisis, much as was seen following the terror attacks of September 11, 2001.

Another major criticism is that the mandatory evacuation called on August 28 made no provisions to evacute homeless or low-income and carless households, as well as large numbers of elderly and the infirm. In 2000, a census revealed that 27% of New Orleans households were without any means of privately-owned transportation.

There are also major concerns about the Government suspending search and rescue efforts to focus on protecting businesses from looting.

be here now - & right now there's some fucked up shit going on. figuring out what god to blame is a luxury for a later date

lets hope red cross works properly with their donations this disaster.

ways to help...
michele banger - the city lies dreaming
Operation Post Modern Shamanism

Thursday, 1 September 2005

Mutato Nomine the Cafe Press store

To begin with, there's now the official Unquiet Mind - Mew Mew Mew T-shirts for $23.50 each... We'll see where it goes from here. If you just want to donate money to me, that's also fine - there's a new paypal button next to the blogger button on this & on the digitrash site

How to Identify Misinformation

How can a journalist or a news consumer tell if a story is true or false? There are no exact rules, but the following clues can help indicate if a story or allegation is true.

* Does the story fit the pattern of a major media outlet or government agency?
* Does the story fit the pattern of an “urban legend propogated by viral marketers?”
* Does the story contain an obviously bias revelation about a highly controversial issue?
* Is the source trustworthy?
* What does further research tell you about how power manipulates information?

more here

also: countering viral marketing

Worlock - Skinny Puppy video (NSFW)

it's downloadable directly from here: Worlock-X (site owner gave me permission to link directly - it's about 55MB or something)

this is the video you won't find on the market - it's everything it should be - clips from horror films spliced with shots of nivek seriously fucked up - disturbing graphic imagery

I'd heard about this video but today was the first time I'd seen it